Thursday, October 30, 2008

Important Notice

Just wanted to post and let you all know that I won’t be submitting any updates for the rest of the week, and will likely not be able to update next week either. A series of serious medical problems has me both terrified and in a great deal of pain. I noticed a growth in the shower which bore all the signs of a tumor about the size of a kiwi fruit. I went immediately to the physician who is referring me to an urologist to check to see if it’s cancerous or benign. While I was waiting to be contacted by the urologist I noticed that my eyes had gotten very dry. They stayed this way for well over a week and became even more painful as time went by, to the point that I’ve had to tape my eyes shut for days on end just to get any relief. I purchased every kind of eye drop on the market; without effect.

Managed to get to an ophthalmologist clinic today; man was that guy rough. He poured what felt like three types of acid in my eyes before turning my eye lids inside out and then sticking strips of litmus paper against my corneas. They were held in place for over two minutes while the paper changed color to indicate some sort of chemical reaction. Frankly I would’ve rather been stabbed again, that hurt a hell of a lot less. In any case the doc tells me I’ve got some form of conjunctivitis. It’s an autoimmune disease which stops the glands around the eyelashes from releasing moisture and fluids onto the surface of the eye, keeping it moist.

As a treatment I’ve got to instill three different kinds of eye drops in my eyes four times a day in a specific order while massaging the eyelashes and using boiling hot compresses to loosen the oil in the glands. The eye drops also have the consistency of Vaseline. Bottom line is that I won’t be able to see anything for the next week or two until this treatment is over.

Hopefully it will work. If it doesn’t then there are two reasons why. The one reason is that I have a severe thyroid disorder, one of the symptoms of which is this conjunctivitis. This means I’ll have to see yet another specialist. Thyroid problems are very tricky too. There are no medications out there which govern the operation of the thyroid effectively, meaning chemical imbalances causing a lot of nasty side effects are common. The second reason is that the next form of medication needed to fix the conjunctivitis, while dealing with the thyroid problem, costs more than my first car did.

Keep in mind that this is while I’m still waiting to find out if I’ve got cancer and am going to need surgery to remove a portion of my anatomy which, although it doesn’t see much use, I’ve grown sentimentally attached to. Whoever says curses and bad luck don’t exist has never met me.

On top of all this, I’m self employed. I’ve got no medical coverage whatsoever. So far I’ve paid for my medical visits out of my personal savings. If I end up needing surgery my only option, aside from dying, is taking out a loan and then declaring bankruptcy. I don’t own anything and have no assets which I can’t officially sign over to a family member, so I won’t loose much aside from my credit rating.

I’m going to go lie down now. I’d cry but my eyes can’t produce any moisture right now. If you’ve been kind enough to read this far, I thank you deeply. I suppose it’s a bit like watching a train wreck; it’s horrible but you can’t look away. If you can do me one more kindness, please click on one of the adjacent advertisements. They are completely harmless and put a few cents in my pocket every time someone clicks on them.

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